citylipstick - The tragic existance of a lost lamb

Yes I am feeling at a rather all time low right now, as I am sitting here in my room waiting for the phone or door to go.
Vampire boy said he would take me out tonight to a club but I'v not heard from him all day, if he was travelling down then thats the reason but I signed into msn & he almost instantly signed out, I'm trying to maintain the ilusion that that was him signing off because he saw I was home and was coming down to get me. This was an hour ago though.

I have had a pretty shit last few days, I went to vist a friend for her birthday and ended up having my drink spiked and had someone try to rape me the next night. So as you can imagin I just want a friend right now and so far i've had no one. I just feel rather let down.

On a good note with all the partying & sleeping I have been doing, I have been eating less and deininatly weighing less.

Anyway I am going to get dressed and sit patheticaly at my window looking for Vampire boy.
I wouldn't bother if I didn't feel like I loved him, so wonderful, so beautiful and it has made me into a pathetic little girl.
I just want his attention tonight, like before.

Current Mood: lonely